Lately

So, lately I haven’t been around here much. And I apologize. And I wanted to update you all in what has been going on in my life!

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In April I made the decision that after graduation I would head into Discipleship Training School with YWAM (or Youth With A Mission). So the past summer has been filled with working, preparing, fundraising, and spending as much time with family and friends that I could before leaving the state for 5 months. I am officially 2 weeks in to this experience, and it is better and harder than I ever could have imagined.

I love the atmosphere here. I love how every moment of every day there are people around you encouraging you and walking alongside you as we all grow deeper in love with Jesus. It is hard because I’ve come face to face with some things in my heart that I never knew were there, or had suppressed for so many years and never wanted to have to face again.

But Jesus is so faithful! He has shown me His overwhelming love for me, and how He will never stop pursuing me. And because of that, I can stop focusing on what I have to do to earn His love, and just bask in His presence instead. Because nothing that I can do will ever be worthy enough to earn His love for me. I just have to accept it.

He is worthy of the highest praise, yet He longs to hear my voice in constant communication with Him. He wants me to tell Him everything about how I’m feeling and how my day is going, even though He already knows.

One song that has really been impacting me these past few weeks has been So Will I (100 Billion X) by Hillsong:

God of creation
There at the start
Before the beginning of time
With no point of reference
You spoke to the dark
And fleshed out the wonder of light

And as You speak
A hundred billion galaxies are born
In the vapor of Your breath the planets form
If the stars were made to worship so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve made
Every burning star
A signal fire of grace
If creation sings Your praises so will I

God of Your promise
You don’t speak in vain
No syllable empty or void
For once You have spoken
All nature and science
Follow the sound of Your voice

And as You speak
A hundred billion creatures catch Your breath
Evolving in pursuit of what You said
If it all reveals Your nature so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You say
Every painted sky
A canvas of Your grace
If creation still obeys You so will I
So will I
So will I

If the stars were made to worship so will I
If the mountains bow in reverence so will I
If the oceans roar Your greatness so will I
For if everything exists to lift You high so will I
If the wind goes where You send it so will I
If the rocks cry out in silence so will I
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times

God of salvation
You chased down my heart
Through all of my failure and pride
On a hill You created
The light of the world
Abandoned in darkness to die

And as You speak
A hundred billion failures disappear
Where You lost Your life so I could find it here
If You left the grave behind You so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve done
Every part designed in a work of art called love
If You gladly chose surrender so will I
I can see Your heart
Eight billion different ways
Every precious one
A child You died to save
If You gave Your life to love them so will I

Like You would again a hundred billion times
But what measure could amount to Your desire
You’re the One who never leaves the one behind.

 

I’m hoping to start posting on a more regular basis, so PLEASE let me know what kind of content you would like to see around here! I want this to be a constant place of encouragement, and I would very much value your input! ❤

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